I always made my family and work the priority; never taking my health or well- being serious or making it about me.
For 15 years I struggled with the scale and mirror always focusing on my weight.
I would weigh myself on average 2 to 3 times a day; every day.
I did not love myself or have confidence in anything I tried or did.
I failed on numerous diets and exercise programs always feeling I could never afford to take care of myself; my money needed to be spent on the kids and house.
At the age of 27 my body was forever changed with a hysterectomy and that was when the weight really started to increase.
In July 2010 I was diagnosed with high blood pressure, the doctor told me I should be in the hospital and that day was so scary but I still did not change.
I also considered having weight loss surgery but the risks scared me and did not want to take the easy way.
Still I could not figure out what it would take for me to change. Failure had always taken over and never successfully completed anything.
In December 2012, my family and I took Christmas pictures.
That was the day that it all changed; noticing how much I had let myself go.
Heaviest weight at 281Lbs., very closed off, no confidence, very angry, unhappy and did not enjoy being in public or going to functions due to never being comfortable about how I looked.
That was the moment I woke up and realized if I did not change how would I live a full happy and fulfilling life?
How would I be able to walk without wheezing or struggle to catch my breath?
The questions started what can I do, where do I want to be, how do I want to feel.
In April 2013 I started this journey with an outdoor boot camp group.
My irst experience with a trainer was very negative and it effected how I was doing.
So in July 2013 I decided I was not going back to that treatment and I was going to find a new place and trainer.
With the help of Shannon, a fellow Breakthrough member, she arranged for me to meet Chris and workout.
I loved the atmosphere, his positive attitude and that was the day I knew I was going to make it.
After one week of free workouts, I joined and became committed to listen to Chris and follow his directions.
He made me realize that, until I loved what was going on in the inside, the outside would never change.
I started reading and listen to audios that he sent me; learning to be strong and confident in my own skin.
Since finding Chris in August 2013, it has been an amazing journey to find myself and learn who I am, what I am here for, and where I was going.
I decided that I wanted this more than anything I have ever wanted in my life besides my family.
It has been a long, hard journey but it is far from over.
I am prepared to make this lifestyle commitment to myself.
I take baby steps every day to improve my health and well-being.
For over 15 years I have worn the women’s apparel due to my size, however after this short time, I am wearing regular size clothing and have started to enjoy shopping.
It feels incredible!
As of February 17, 2014 I am no longer on medication for high blood pressure; the doctor is very happy with my progress and commitment to be healthy, happy and very open with my feelings.
I have never been one to stick with workouts or cardio but since meeting Chris, I love getting up at 4am to come to the gym for 5am morning sessions.
Cardio is like my medicine to be happy and not let the stress of the day affect my attitude.
When I started at Breakthrough, I found that most of what I had previously learned was incorrect.
Chris is an amazing trainer along with being a wonderful mentor.
My next goal at Breakthrough is to test into the F2 class. It is very exciting seeing the changes on the gym floor which I am continuing to grow on.
This change has helped me to assist my daughters in becoming stronger, happy and open minded individuals.
I want them to look at me and say if mom can do this I can do anything.
They would not want to share things with me in the past because of fear I would get angry.
Well now we have lengthy talks and share our feeling every day.
I’m loving the openness and great relationship we have now.
Recently my oldest daughter came to me with self-esteem issues and talking about her weight. This change has helped me to help her and to not let her make the same mistakes I have in the past.
Also in the whole scale of things, the scale or full length mirrors no longer hold me back.
Wow how things have changed since coming to Chris and the Breakthrough family.
I flipped the switch to wanting to show how beautiful I am on the inside, and outside to the world.
I have become very grateful for others along the way.
I was not one to have close relationships or show affection but I love to hug and pump people up.
I was always the one in the back of the room never saying anything – now I cannot shut up!!! Right Chris ?
So excited to see what more I can grow and become as a grateful, positive and happy soul.
For someone who has struggled with their weight for over 15 years, it has always been hard to see the changes that are happening on the outside.
Since starting this new journey in August I have found to love and see the changes on the inside instead of always focusing on the outside. I
have finally realized through all these months I am worth all these great things.
I will not fail or give up on myself.
I know that each day is a learning experience and I will not be perfect but this is who and what I want to be.
Clean, grateful, healthy, happy and loving myself fully.